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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Once again, this interesting little activity continues to spread. 2 persons found my blog by searching this name: 'cheeguan', on yahoo.com. hahaha... this time i'm tickled by it. inspired by this name-searching frenzy, i tried searching 'jinling' specifically from blogspot as well to see what i can find. but turned out that 'jinling' is too common a name and there were too many pages in all. so far didn't discover anything surprising. decided to give up. it's really too bo liao. at least 'cheeguan' didnt give too many pages. nor did *****, in fact only 2.

I've decided not to write about discouraging things today. instead, let's talk about shameless people.

I've seen and heard about too many shameless people who exist in my world. it's so disheartening. oh wait, that's somthing discouraging too i guess. why do some people behave so shamelessly audaciously immorally immodestly incorrigibly indecently lewdly unashamedly unabashedly outrageously (courtesy of thesaurus.com) they make me wanna puke out my guts and shriek "go to hell and stay there!!!" arghhHHH!!! i'm going crazy mad berserk bonkers crazed cuckoo nutty mental psycho unhinged screwy insane haywire flipped spongebobsquarepants!!!

Because people actually read my blog, i can't say what shameless & ridiculous things i'm seeing people do.

Perhaps it's just a matter of opinion.

I just feel very sad.

The people whom i claim to be friends with. whom i trust. whom i love. whom i care about. will they do these things to me too?? are they doing it now?? have they done it already??(let's not mention those that i'm already aware of)

For now let's heck those people whom i don't care about. pity them. my heart bleeds for thee.

Why do i suddenly feel that the world is so dark. why do some people thrive on miseries. it makes them feel damn shiok when they see people being miserable isit. i do not comprehend.

They must be super happy lah cos the world is full of miseries.

Yay. *Smuf's theme song at the background (lalalalalala...)

I've digressed.

So anyway, i know you probably still care for me. i still remember your recent (ironically still sweet) words of concern. however... i just thought that by not contacting you anymore, it's the bestest thing i could ever do for you. i don't ever wanna be perceived as one of those shameless people i've just mentioned above, by anyone, although i'm fully aware that i'm not.

Sometimes i DO wish that you DO read my blog.

Cos you would be glad to know that i really don't need you to be worried for me anymore. i've got jian mer bra don tru etc.

I'll try my best to see doctor when i'm sick & drink more water & not to eat snacks between meals & sleep early & stay happy etcetcetcetc.... as well.

See i remember k.

P.S i'm not sure whether i'd rather be left alone or not. but pleaseplease continue to leave me alone if you don't really care. you are ever so obliging towards others. don't ever feel obliged to do things for me anymore (if that was really how you felt). you can do yourself this favour. =)

Pms works its way again. bah.

dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
12:07 AM