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Saturday, April 02, 2005

Went with Eunice to her cell group's food fair today, which i didn't eat any food... haha.. well my main purpose was just to go see see look look and occupy my mind with some things...

And we talked a lot... she & i.. talked about the past... how good it used to be... talked about now... how saddening... how things are always not like what they seem to be... it's pretty depressing. or perhaps it's just the way that we perceive some things. i dunno... growing up is incredibly complicated.

Maybe she's right to say that i'm thinking too much... maybe i HAVE assumed too many things, which seemed so right to me then. due to the nature of me being so stubborn all the time. the nature of me being forever distrustful & suspicious of a person who has let me down before. the nature of me always wanting to do things in the RIGHT way. the PERFECT way. the way that i always think i'm right. then when something goes wrong i'll start to bang my head against the wall and feel that it's all my fault.

Maybe it's just being Virgo. it's highly stressful.

I'm sorry that my recent entries are all kinda depressing. this is what you call getting disillusioned with people, with life. i'll try to blog something more cheerful next time.

dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
12:15 AM