*___ShE's LiViN' iN hEr OwN wOrLd_

Saturday, April 30, 2005

My stint at kino has finally ended... more than 3 months already... i think my colleagues all treated me like a little girl ie. i'm showered with all the care and concern heehee... very grateful for all the love.

So i'm currently jobless. except for a road show tomorrow. i need another source of INCOME soon.

I had an extremely long conversation online with some very tall person yesterday. (hehe) and it lasted till almost 6 in the morning! whee~ we were talking about relationship stuff... the difference between the mentality of females and males... how complicated...

He said this which made me feel all twisted inside: "maybe he really did love you very much. so much that he's very insecure and afraid that he'll lose you. the way you have been acting made him think that he's not good enough and he constantly feels that you're gonna leave him.he got so worried and tired already until he lost it completely."
" it's a men's pride and ego that have been preventing him from telling you certain problems he's been facing... he wouldn't bear to restrict you in anything u do... "
" you know why i understand that so well? it's cos i've been through the exact same thing."

*not exact quotes... just similar.

It could all make perfect sense to me, when i think back to the series of events. everyone's been telling me that some things may not be what they seem to be. but wilful jinling just liked to believe in negative things that seemed so true in her face then. however, they are all not important anymore, i guess... just a lesson to learn... i'm not sure if i still want to know the absolute truth anymore... =)

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Oh one day i was looking through my contacts, and i realized there are so many of them which perpetually remained red. never online to me. so i thought MAYBE THEY BLOCKED ME!! maybe they've had enough of crappy conversations with that super irritating and erratic jinling that they've decided to block her out for good!! so i decided maybe i should now block THEM instead. so that i could tell myself that even when they're online i wouldn't see them online so they're perpetually offline cos i've blocked them and i wouldn't know if they've blocked me! ha! does msn work like that??

dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
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