Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Did i say i take the train every weekend in my last entry? i meant every weekday. and people only crowd around at the 1st door at little india station, not at all doors. (for jianning) Please take note.
My life is such a bore. not to mention a disappointment. but i guess it's that same old phrase again... it goes on. no matter what. it's a real fortunate thing that as one grows up you tend to feel more indifferent about things, because there are simply too many things for you to take care of and if you see everything as being so important you're gonna collaspe in fatigue. mentally. and so the point is you gotta be selective in the things that you'd wanna feel important about, like family, health, blah... don't take things too hard if you find yourself being made a fool of now and then, believing in things that people make you believe then suddenly huh! gotcha! you know it's part and parcel of life. it's really ok. i totally understand that cos you wanna trust him that's why you got gotchad. but if you got gotchad multiple times by different people, it's kinda bad. by the same person... you're kinda stupid. you know you gotta learn faster to be stronger & smarter & wiser & thicker-skinned. like me you know i'm trying very hard. it's no longer a good thing to be thinking too positively sometimes. the shield around me is getting thicker. WHY. i'm sorry that all i wanna do is try to make things better. i'm sorry that i'm so selfish i really wanna make myself feel better. this doesn't make sense. i dunno why i always feel so sorry. like, sorry for existing.
dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
11:06 PM
