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Thursday, March 31, 2005

Today's brandon chen junhao's birthday!! happy birthday to yooooooo~~ may you have all happy & joyous days ahead =D 19 sounds like damn old hehe... it's been... your 3rd birthday since we knew each other? heehee...

I think i felt a lil' better today. not that much pukey till at night. i wonder how long will this pukiness feeling last. anyway... today... thought of something that happened to me in the recent past...

A reaccount of the past:

girl A meets boy B again after so many years. girl A & boy B became really good friends. girl A appeared just right at the time when boy B felt his lowest. girl A feels that boy B is a good friend here to stay. she's often amazed by how boy B understands her feelings & personality so well... more than she herself does.

boy B starts to kinda like girl A. girl A thinks they get along great... but not quite there yet. girl A then falls for boy Y. girl A realizes and was sorry that she's begginning to neglect boy B but doesn't want boy Y to worry about her being too close with boy B.

boy B went on to find another girl Z whom he likes. girl A & boy Y broke up. girl A is heartbroken. after some time boy B sms-ed girl A that he broke up with girl Z cos he still have feelings for girl A. girl A was shocked, & rejected him. the next day boy B says that those smses were sent by girl Z just to test whether girl A will snatch boy B away from her. girl A was utterly disheartened. she felt that boy B has completely betrayed their friendship. girl A doesn't blame girl Z. she just blames boy B.

after some time girl A felt better & wants to forgive boy B. boy B says girl Z will mind that they still keep in contact, and that they have to do so secretly. girl A didn't want to affect boy B & girl Z's relationship. she doesn't want boy B to be in a difficult position thus decided to throw in their friendship.

What comes around goes around. only that it'll come back to hit you harder. i guess this is what you call retribution. i was getting mine then, and i'm getting mine AGAIN now. i actually remembered your bdae BAG, just that... felt that our friendship has already changed. no longer like before. it's kinda weird. i'm sorry that i didnt even wish you happy birthday. happy belated birthday now, if you actually do read my blog. i'm sorry.

Thus i'm reflecting on my life these past few days. the above event is pretty significant to me, BAG probably doesn't realize. sometimes i just wonder... how many true friends do i really have?? how important am i really to these so-called friends?? is everything good & nice in the world just a facade? like huatz said, you just have to accept certain things when they turn out to be unexpected. i accepted. while learning more lessons in life.

I wished i didn't have soul.

dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
11:02 PM