*___ShE's LiViN' iN hEr OwN wOrLd_

Monday, January 03, 2005

Today's the first day of school... only that i'm not involved.. kinda missed school. saw a group of cedarians walking home just now and i couldn't help but feel envious. life was so innocent back then, my worries only revovle around GRADES & HOMEWORK. i'm so sick of life now i'm sick of myself.

i never knew i could be so weak emotionally. maybe that's another part of my change. i think... i used to be a strong person, scoff at those who were weak. presently i often feel so vulnerable. yet some people just love to stab me again & again. what's wrong with you man, or what's wrong with me. i dunno if it's your problem or is it mine. what's going on :S simplicity is really a blessing. arghhhhh i wanna screeeeeam.....

According to my resolutions i'm supposed to think positively. so the positive thought of the day: after repeatedly throwing tantrums at you, you are still willing to talk to me which is good. or are you really willing? nono you must be willing.

I miss the past i miss the past but some things could never be like before. i used to think that every problem can be solved as long as i try... but i feel that more often than not i'm messing things up. it gets worse than before. i'm desperate. lousy jinling.

dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
11:48 PM