Tuesday, December 14, 2004
Hmms i haven't been updating my blog for a longlong time.. partly cos i'm lazy.. what a lazy me.
Well to summarise the past few weeks' happenins', i came back from china, brought back some little stuff like tidbits, accessories & little things to give away to my friends! nothing like clothes or shoes cos it's all winter over there.
Then there was prom.. super boring but that was expected anyway. didn't have many people from my class attending.. the food was like urgh since they figured out no one's there to eat anyway. so most of the time we were walking around chatting & taking pictures. some people looked really different from usual boring school days.. guess some do-ups can really make wonders.
I coloured & permed my hair.. The colour was alright i guess, turns light easily cos my hair's originally brown-based. i hate my hair now... pleah... so dry & messy... the stylist said to give it some time to settle it'll look really nice... i doubt so...
So now i'm back to my completely aimless life again. class chalet on 22th 23th 24th so i can't possibly start working now. i really feel so empty inside, as though somene had dug a hole in my heart. what's with my life??? get a grip get a grip!!!
I shall hereby pay a special contribution to my sisbra.. hehe.. who has always been here for me these days. he's always there! to here me speak, accompany me & to fix my com! hahaha... i'm really grateful to you bra, although i may not always show it. =D
I guess i've always been a very dependent person. My friends make me who i am to day =) anyway who am i actually?? haha..
I've always wondered how long it'll take before i can get into a new relationship. not anywhere soon i guess. after everything, i find it very hard to trust men in that way again. i'm not being resentful here and saying that i've put my trust in the wrong hands. it's that after the 100% trust & love & everything that i've put in i may not get the same in return... it may not necessarily end up well... i know it's much easier for you, or maybe it's just guys... =P or maybe i'm just a person who's not too optimistic.
I dunno if you & i could ever be like beforebefore again if you know what i mean. If we hadn't talked, all the misunderstandings would get in the way. I've always treated you as one of my best friends & i probably always will unless you tell me not to =) (see i'm being very gracious here =P)
dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
6:13 PM
