Monday, December 27, 2004
i think i know what's with my msn. should be cos of the zonealarm firewall thing, so i shut it down when i'm using msn. but then... i'll be unprotected from potential viruses.. bleh... *shrugs
Everyone says my entries sound depressed. haha.. hmms... k maybe.. i'm just.. reflecting...
Well anyway... i think i didn't use to read so much into people's actions & words, i used to be more simple... dunno why i'm like that now... for example, if somemone says: "don't think too much lah k..." i'll start thinking "oh he wants to get off the subject. he must be very irritated talking to me already. he must be thinking that i think too much i'm a freak!!something's wrong with me!! why do i think so much?? i've got a problem..." something like that.. ok maybe i'm exaggerating a lil' =P well... at least i'm not the only one, tru has similar thoughts sometimes too heehee...
Sigh... maybe i just need the assurance. i hereby apologize to anyone whom i've been an annoying pest to. sorry for sounding sarcarstic or throwing tantrums or bombarding you with bo liao messages sometimes..it's my illness. i've got a BUG on me. i think the BUG came to me like end of last year... i thought i've shaken it off but it came back again, more persistant than ever. i think everybody's huh-ing no one understands what i'm crapping about. haha but i'm telling you it's TRUE. i don't wanna keep feeling like this i need to find some meaning in my life again!!! Whew. haiz...
Last night i had this weird dream of a big-sized guy which wansong brought to my house one fine day. he had a name, called Larry. he was actually quite good-looking, half-caucasian. he was real playful, kept playing weird tricks in my house.. so funny.. but i liked him a lot. suddenly i was in the beach thinking about the past, he appeared out of nowhere, just when i wanted to see him the most. he apologized & asked am i being too playful? am i too irritating? i'm sorry i'll try not to next time. i assured him no lah you are not! you make me laugh lots!
Is there any relevance to what i've said previously above? NO. i just wanna say that i often have interesting dreams like this which are fun to dream about. i dunno if there's any relevance to my life.
dara lost in [[fairytale]]-land
11:47 PM
